Questions?

So, have you ever been leading your life in one direction but the closer you get to the final point the more you wonder if you have done everything right? Perhaps the goal isn't really for you? How can I truly know anything if I am changing my plans every single year?

I haven't wanted to be a psychology professor until the first semester of my junior year. I haven't wanted to be a professor in social psychology until this semester. And now, just a year from when I will be obtaining a degree, I am not sure if I have gone about everything in the right way. The closer I come to graduating the scarier life becomes.

Should I go into the Peace Corps and discontinue my education for nearly three years perhaps causing me in the process to forget much of what I know to be true? Or should I go into graduate school directly (or soon after) college so that I can enter my career sooner in life (possibly altering me from ever going into the Peace Corps)? Will I have enough money for Grad-school either way? Will I be admitted to University of Michigan or Ohio State University?

What is it with today that causes me to ask so many questions? Will everything work out in the end? I don't know what to do sometimes. Next year I have so many psychology classes that I will forget about many things that matter to me in life (like music), well, a least for a period of a few months. And when I reach Grad-school, my whole life will be focused on one thing, is that what I want to happen? Can I stop it from happening? Whatever happens, don't I know that the general human tendency is to see things that you work hardest for in the best light? So should I even be concerned? Are there enough question marks yet?

So many questions to leave unanswered for another day to come my way. And all the time my life continues whether I want it to or not. Will I be prepared for what comes next? Haven't I always been? Am I prepared for failure?